Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Is it time to start looking to a new path?

Being an emotional person is tough. The highs are awesome, the lows really blow. For the past week, I have been experiencing all sorts of both. I was off from work for about 10 days. I won't lie, it was great. I got to hang out with my dogs, be super lazy and not stress about clients, well, except one day, but, that's another blog for another day. I woke up feeling pretty good, ready to reboot my training. To get back into competing again, but being smarter about it this time. I got back into juicing, eating a little better and in general, feeling pretty good. I'm not sure what happened, but,  today I really just want to crawl onto the couch with my dogs and watch movies. I don't want to work on anyone, and I hate that I am like this. I should be excited. I work for myself. I answer to nobody. But all I could think of this morning after I loaded my car up was how much my body hurts. For a long time, I thought the reason I was in so much pain for so long was because I was training too hard, doing too many massages as well. My reality is, this past 10 days, I worked on nobody, and I felt great, trained hard even, but slept good no headaches etc. After my first client today, I'm a hurtin unit, and a bit scared as to what my next steps are. I love what I do. I love that I work for myself. I love that my clients have so much confidence in me and my abilities, and that they recommend me to their friends and family. I'm not sure if I'm ready to ask myself what else I can do if I can't do massage.

Thursday, October 17, 2013

So, I can't post what I like on MY Facebook page....hmmm....that seems a little wrong pal.

I joined Facebook over a year ago. Yes, I was resistant to it for a long time. After joining, I became friends with many people who are in the PL community, and also other people as well. I looked forward to the interaction, the feedback and basically reaching out to new people. What I have found over the past year is people can be annoying, rude and really, not the kind of people I would hang out with in "the real world". I have unfriended countless people because I got tired of no interaction. Really, are you just interested in stalking my page, but offering no intelligent input? Then I have no time for you. What I have also discovered is I am getting leery about "liking" many things I am passionate about, such as dogs, dog rescue or anything political. It shouldn't be that way. I should be able to do what I wish with my own page, but yet, when I do, I get smart ass comments posted to my timeline...latest example " Dear God, enough with the  dog postings for the love of....". So, let me get this straight, you can post picture after picture of your child, but yet, I can't of my own dogs? Really, why am I friends with you. You obviously don't know shit about me. If you don't like what I have to say, what I post or what I share, either unfriend me or suppress my feed. You have choices, because really, I am getting too old to give a shit about what you do or do not like posted on my FB page....

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

Is it live...or is it memorex?

In this day and age many women, myself included, are obsessed with looks and aging. We wonder how it is that JLo can look so good in her new music video. We wonder how Gwyneth never looks like she is aging, even at 41. We are aware of photo shopping. We understand that many of these women and men are "fixed": wrinkles erased, thighs slimmed etc. What I wasn't aware of was the movies and music videos being altered as well. Does that make me naive? Perhaps, but I would also like to have believed that not everything in this world is make believe. I am 42. I have grey hair, wrinkles and some fat I wouldn't mind being photo shopped off as well, but that's not my reality. I am wondering when it became taboo to age graceful. I can't look at celebrities anymore and guess ages, because so many of them have had some type of work done. While that is their choice, I wonder if they realize how that affects the general population. We wonder why, being about the same age as Jlo and Gwyneth that we may not look as tight in a bathing suit. Why we seem to have so many more wrinkles and wobbly bits. Then we start to question everything that we are doing. What we are eating, drinking, if we are exercising enough, doing the RIGHT exercises and it becomes another whole obsession. We find ourselves on this hamster wheel, never able to get to the right destination. What we don't realize is that for many of us, we have already arrived right where we needed to. My job isn't to look good, or sell products, promote movies or to score huge endorsement deals. My job is to be the best person I can. To be happy with who I am becoming. To accept the flaws I do have and to try not to dwell on the ones I know exist. By getting sucked into the photo shopped world of make believe, I am discounting the person I am. Ignoring how pretty my own eyes are, how strong my own legs are and in general, believing that I don't have anything to offer, since I'm not a size two with  no wrinkles and slim legs. I won't do it anymore. My eyes are now open...and from now on, will be looking at things in a whole new light....