Thursday, May 1, 2014

2014 can suck a bag of dicks......

Well 2014 was already off to a roaring start when my sister passed, so imagine my surprise in thinking things couldn't get worse, only to have that happen. I lost a good friend and client this past weekend. He was only 35. Passed in his sleep. No, he wasn't the healthiest, but, I never saw this coming. What I am struggling the most with is the people that are popping up, saying how much they are going to miss him, what a great friend he was etc. The same people that talked shit about him when he was splitting up with his wife. The same people that didn't return phone calls or text. The same people that dropped him like a hot turd when he lost his job. The soon to be ex wife posting how she can't imagine life without him, how much pain this is causing her etc. Do I seem cold? Perhaps, but when you are a friend and they are a client as well, you hear EVERYTHING that is going on in their life. I heard the good, the bad and the severely ugly. It breaks my heart. It makes it hard to take anything these people say with any sincerity. My friend wasn't perfect. None of us are. But I do know he deserved better than he received from all of us, myself included. My friend was someone who always had the right words. Who knew how to make someone feel better. One of the people in my life that knew when to push and when to back off. He was a large man, with a huge heart, offered huge hugs and would literally give you the shirt off his back. I can honestly say life is going to be a little darker without him it it....RIP peanut.....